So yesterday morning I had very cool and annoying experience.  

It was about 6:30 in the morning and the kids had actually let us sleep a little but I was in and out of consciousness singing in my head a verse from the hymn I Have Decided to Follow Jesus.  I looked it up the following morning and it was verse 2 I was sing over and over. 

“The world behind me, the cross before me;

The world behind me, the cross before me;

The world behind me, the cross before me;

No turning back, no turning back.”

It was annoying because it was 6:30 and the only chance I’ve had to sleep-in for a very long time. But it was cool because that was exactly what I needed to hear that morning. Life around has been quite crazy, a little scary and not going as smoothly as we’d like. I mentioned our car troubles last week. Well the night before we had made a decision on what we were going to do. We decided we’d fix our car even though we found out there was much more to fix than we originally thought. 

I’ve had some shoulder problems in the past but it has been feeling great. However since last Tuesday I’ve had a horrible pain in my low back. Unable to bend over very far, play piano or do much with the kids. Found out our accountant and bookkeeper is not going to be able to work this year due to some circumstances in her life. Add on some usual daily stress and it’s been a fairly trying time. Just can’t seem to get the momentum going in our direction right now.  That can make me struggle with some of our recent life decisions and cause unnecessary struggles.

But through all of this my wife and I have been praying more as a couple and have been very close which is of the utmost importance in stressful times. Our kids continue to bring us great joy and make us laugh. And most importantly we have been feeling close to and lead by God. Knowing that our decision to follow him and leave the world behind is the right one. That the difficulties we are facing right now are minor in the grand scheme of things and that God does want good things for us. 

So waking up singing a song I can recall only hearing once and declaring in my spirit the world is behind me and the cross is before me is a great way to start the day.