Well, I just finished my last day as a member of a ministry staff team. It’s been a long path since my wife and I decided it was time to step aside back in July.  I am very thankful that God provided the path that He did and that He was faithful during this long time of transition.  I’m trusting that He will continue to show us the next steps as we seek Him more and more. 

I had no idea how I was going to feel today in the office or what it was going to be like to leave. 

Today was not really different than any other day around the office. I had already emptied out my office so I wasn’t carrying boxes out with me today. I was just trying to make sure that everything that needed done got taken care of.  The only thing that made it different was knowing that it all had to be done today. I couldn’t leave anything till tomorrow.  

While I did have a few sad moments I was also reminded of a lot of the reasons this is the right decision. I was there and happy but I definitely did not feel alive doing what I was doing.  I was also reminded of a number of the reasons I wasn’t the best fit for this particular church. 

When I got home my wife and kids had hung a few balloons, banners and streamers and prepared a great celebration dinner.  I can say quite confidently that I have a very incredible wife.  

The best way to describe how I’m feeling now is tired. You know that tired after you’ve been going on adrenaline for a while and then you get a chance to stop.  I still haven’t decided what the next few days will look like. I want to get a big jump on a lot of work that needs done but I also realize I could use a little break.  I have no scheduled plans until Monday and it would be great to just hang with the kids a lot. 

Thanks for reading along with me on my journey over the last while.  Hope you’ll stick around the blog as I develop it beyond a bunch of ramblings of my transition.