So I’m preparing for my final Sunday coming up this week. 

This past Sunday we did a big youth band. One member of the team described the size of the team as “epic”.  In my three or so years in my ministry position I think the greatest thing we’ve accomplished is the engaging of many youths in what we are trying to do in worship ministries. There is still a long way to go but some really great seeds have been planted.  Four years ago there was only a handful of youths involved and for the most part that was limited to teenage boys being stuck behind the sound board. That was the only thing the were being equipped to do and they were the only ones convinced to serve in that area. 

This past Sunday we had the youth leading the musical worship, playing all the instruments and leading all the prayers.  It was great. I had a blast being a part of it with them.

It also excited and depressed me.  It excited me because it affirmed many of the things I see that are possible for the ministry that I have been leading. It depressed me a little because I have not been able to lead it to where I think it should and could go.  

I have been very blessed in my job. As worship leading jobs go I have had it very easy. There have been a lot of changes in the last three years and there has been very little “blow up” that you hear about in other churches. Where I have struggled is that we just stopped when we got comfy. There is still so much potential and things that could be done (specifically to engage a younger generation) but not enough of a desire to push through to accomplish them.  That has added to my struggles and my decision to move on.  I want more.  I want to reach for every sky I can. Both personally and as a part of a community of faith.